Clearing the mind
« Thread started on: Nov 30th, 2004, 11:56pm »
I feel a bit bad about this being my first entry and I’ve had you for awhile…I’m not one to care to write my thoughts down, but at moment I feel if I don’t do something I’m going to burst….Everything’s happened so quickly….me and Katie ran off and go married. I found out Yami wasn’t my cousin, but really my oldest brother, my father died, Yami ran off and married Aubrey, she got pregnant and they had a baby boy named Ryku, Kiyen’s engaged to Leona and they adopted a baby girl named Marley. I have a new little sister named Karlie-Ann…my father adopted her for my mom right before he died. Katie’s pregnant with twins girls…we are naming them Tea and Tristian…I’m scared out of my mind…but I’ll talk about that later….my other sister Sailee ran off and married Noah and they are great together…
*pauses* That’s so much to take all at once….it’s crazy….with Yami being the oldest he took the throne from me and he’s king….now Suruk’s saying father wanted it to be fair and wanted a tournament between the brothers to see who’s qualified enough to be king….I consistently feel like I need fresh air….too much to take at once…
*sighs* Katie’s due any day now….I’m so excited about being a father, but….I’m freaking out….I’m not going to be a good dad….I don’t know how to be a dad….I’m worried….I mean with just one baby it’s hard and I could goof up and mess up one innocent life, but with twins….that’s TWO innocent lives I could screw up….what am I going to do….I’m too nervous to even think about holding them…I love them so much and I’ve never seen them….and I’ve never ever been scared in my life…
*pauses* And then my best friend Kadeus is going through a major internal struggle…I wish I could help him…but he won’t talk about it much….all he says is he feels like a mental freak…then he gets upset and leaves….he’s like a brother to me and I’m not going to let him go through this all alone…even if I get hurt…I’m going to stay by his side…I mean I don’t get along at all with any of my real brothers and I’m not going to let the next closest thing abandon me…
*sighs* Well, I’ve go to go check on and Katie see how she’s doing….I’ll write more later….
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Kadeus Sage is my best friend. Katie Bell is my girlfriend.
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